2 Weeks Have Passed-6 and 7

I apologize for any confusion or mistakes within my writing; my time is limited, so I try to write as fast as possible when I get a minute.

October 17^th, Monday

Dr. Williams began teaching us this morning about the importance of literature. These are some main points that I learned.

• In the fall, the mind was corrupted. We usually focus on the soul being redeemed, but the mind was redeemed as well. The renewing of the mind is just as important as renewing the soul.
• I am to study, write papers, and participate in class with all my might to the glory of God. Anything less would be sinning.
• Study-the deliberate, serious, and sustained application of the mind in dependence on the Holy Spirit, and in submission to the scripture to any given topic or problem for the purpose of attaining knowledge, understanding and wisdom.
• Deliberate: choose to do. Serious: requires mental attention. Sustained: devotes time on a regular basis. Topic: everything and anything. Intelligence: processing speed(mine is slow J). Knowledge: possession of facts. Understanding: Seeing how facts relate to each other. Wisdom: knowing how to use the knowledge and understanding effectively in creative and constructive ways to advance God’s kingdom.
• “God has room for people with very little sense, but he expects us to use all the sense we have.” C.S. Lewis
• We, as humans, find out who we are by telling stories. Why? Because we are created in the image of God, and He is the greatest Story teller.
• We were made in the image of God. We were created by an articulate and creative God: He said, and it was made. Adam showed his creativeness and articulateness by beginning to talk and name the animals.
• Basic plot of the Bible: There’s a Hero(Jesus), a villain(Satan), a damsel in distress(mankind), a dungeon(the world), rescuing by a great, personal sacrifice(Jesus’ death), and a happy ending(eternity with Christ). The majority of stories follow this plot, whether they’re fairy tales or fiction. Everyone loves this plot. It’s the plot of the gospel. All stories follow the plot of the gospel. I think this is awesome!
• “Every time a person opens his mouth, he shows that he was created in the image of God.”

I’m already in love with this English Literature Class, and this amazing professor. Thankfully, I have four more days with him! The time in class goes by so quickly while my brain and papers are absorbing everything he I feeding to me. Oh, and by the way, my reading list is growing longer every single day.

October 18^th, Tuesday

Three more hours of English Lit occurred today. Here are some various thoughts regarding the issues we talked about today.

Humanism: Renaissance vs. Secular

• The need for people outside of the church who could read and write was great. Dictatores then came onto the scene. They dictated what the government officials needed to have written down. Later on, they became known as secretaries.
• Greco-Roman Classics were preserved, but not read. No one in the west knew Greek; therefore, when the Byzantine Empire collapsed, refugees who spoke Greek came from the east to the west.
• Renaissance can be known as the rebirth of interest in old, classic works.
• People began using the Grammatico-Historical Exegesis method which asked questions about what was being read: what does the grammar\history say? Why was it written for this certain audience? Who wrote it? This was a new way of reading, finding the original meaning. This saying was introduced: Ad fontes which meant back to the sources.
• Nature of early humanism was not an ideology(lots of Christians, such as Luther, Zwingli, Calvin, were humanists); it was an educational reform movement; it was not putting man in the center but putting humanities in the center; and it involved anyone who wanted to read the ancient books using the grammatico\historical exegesis.
• Ad fontes + the question of religious authority= sola scriptura
• People then began wanting to apply Ad Fontes to the Bible which introduced the Reformation. The Reformation flows directly out of the Renaissance.
• Erasmus edited\published the Greek New Testament in 1516. Through this, Luther posted his 95 theses.
• What went wrong then? 1) Some failed to read the Greeks through the lens of Scripture, 2) Greeks didn’t understand the fall. They believed that evil came from ignorance, 3) They thought human nature was good or neutral.
• Thus began secular humanism. Their response to evil was education or enlightenment.
• If human nature is good, evil comes from ignorance. Salvation lies in eucation. Education becomes a false messiah or idol. This is what went wrong. Anything good that is idolized becomes evil.

Besides learning about secular humanism, most of the students and staff went to Pagosa hot springs in the evening. It was wonderful, warm(ok, hot. one pool was 111 degrees.), and relaxing. It was a great change of the same schedule too, so I liked that mucho.

October 19^th, Wednesday

As I am sitting here during solitude time(this probably doesn’t count as solitude time, but I needed to write it down before I forgot it), my mind goes back to the night Mary Kate and I were driving home from Summit(where I got the idea of Summit Semester)in May. We were traveling through Wyoming at about 8pm, which then stretched to 9pm, 10pm, 11pm as we drove 25-30 mph instead of the regular 75-80 mph. A terrible snow storm had come upon us. Kate was driving anxiously while I was tensely gripping anything I could and praying whenever I remembered to do so. I was so terrified. Whenever she tried to switch lanes to avoid some slush or semis entering the highway, the car’s tires or semi’s tires would cause snow to cover our windshield, blinding us. It took us around 4 or 5 hours to get from Evanston to our house; I think it usually takes like 2 or 3. Even now as I think back to it, I tense up and remember how scared I was. But as I think about it, I realize that we could have been killed easily, either by semis running us off the road, driving off the road due to slush, or something else. And I remember that we had just finished two weeks of intensive learning and training which would affect our worldviews and lifestyles. The enemy could have used that stormy night to perhaps end or ruin our lives. But instead, I think God kept us safe from any possible danger, because he had great plans in store for us. For me, part of this great plan of his includes Summit Semester. It gives me shivers to think of none of this ever happening due to a car accident. And it causes me to thank God for his protective and guiding hand. I’m not trying to say that my life is majorly important and God kept me safe because I’m awesome. I’m just trying to say that he had a plan that not even the devil could ruin. God wanted to teach me so many things over the summer and here at Summit Semester that I will use every day from now on. He is teaching me so that he can use me to teach others by being an example. It’s so hard to explain this, but that’s the best that I can do. God didn’t want Mary Kate’s life and my life to end in May; He wanted it to go on for a purpose. And I believe Summit Semester is part of the reason why. I don’t know about you, but that makes me feel incredibly loved by the Creator of the world and incredibly thankful to Him for his protection and care for me.

October 20^th, Thursday

Last night was pretty amazing, I must say. I went to a public speaking class(something very necessary for my health) taught by a mentor, Marcie. I didn’t think that by going to a public speaking class I would have to speak in public…hehe. One exercise we did was to write an outline of a speech within a small group. Terrified and shaking, I gave the outline in front of thousands of people(more like fifteenJ). But it still scared me. Oh well. I need to get over my fears. 95% of Americans list public speaking as their worst fear. So they’d rather be in the casket at the funeral than be giving the eulogy. Marcie stressed the importance of Christians needing to get over their fear of public speaking because we have the most important speech to give-the gospel. So I now know that it is important that I get over this fear and learn how to speak in public. I can’t use the excuse that I’m not a natural public speaker and that God didn’t create me with public speaking skills. Therefore, I need to get past my shakiness and fear and begin to speak in public more often.

Right after the class, I was able to practice this “skill” of public speaking by reading parts of Romeo and Juliet in a study group of about ten people. It was a hilarious study time. At one point, my friend Maggie was Romeo and a guy named Cliff was Juliet and it just happened to be the kissing scene. It was extremely awkward, but oh so funny. Reading it all out loud really helped me understand the play’s language better.

October 21^st, Friday

Although I didn’t come here to learn directly about youth ministry, I was expecting to learn a few things or be presented with a few ideas about how to affect teenagers effectively. And today during English Literature class, I was given a few. Dr. Williams was speaking about how poorly the Evangelical church is doing, how no one reads anything, and art is not in the church. Therefore, I am hoping to change this in at least a small way at my church(if I’m allowed, hehe). I was thinking a long the lines of an art group, probably among the youth. Many of the youth at my church are incredibly talented in dancing, singing, playing an instrument, and probably more talents that I have not even seen yet. I really want to teach them that God gave them these talents for a reason, and to use them to glorify him. I don’t know how exactly this would work; perhaps by talent shows or teaching other people their talents. I’m not sure yet. But it sounds like it’d be pretty cool! I also really really want to teach the youth at my church how to appreciate reading more . Most of them are not interested in reading at all, and I don’t think they realize how important reading is. It causes us to learn from past mistakes, experiences, etc. It enlarges our being. It helps us to see with eyes that are not just our own. Honestly, before I went to Summit in May, I didn’t realize how important reading was. So I want to pass this new knowledge onto the teens of my church, and hopefully to everyone I come into contact with. Hurrah!

Oh, today is the six week anniversary! It is now half over.:( sad day.

October 25^th, Tuesday

Busy, busy, busy. Yesterday began our busiest week yet, We have double the lecture time: 28 hours instead of 15, plus all of our normal duties. Therefore, I don’t have a lot of time to blog. Or read the required reading. Or commune with God, Or sleep. L Anyway…We spent Saturday at the sand dunes. I guess it was the second highest sand dune in North America. It was pretty impressive. Someday I’ll have time to upload pictures of it onto Facebook. Pretty much, it looked like a bunch of sand was dumped in the middle of nowhere.

Dustin, the director of Semester, and the pastor at Grace church came up with the grand idea of having families from the church “adopt” Summit students and feed them(it sounds like we’re starving or something). So that’s what occurred on Sunday. Groups of students (who don’t normally hang out together, or so it seemed) went to different houses for lunch and possible internet. I went with three other students, Cliff, Peter, and Mary Faith, to an older couple’s house. We discussed what our lives would look like in ten years, small unknown facts about ourselves, church, Summit Semester, and a bunch of other random topics. I had a splendid time, especially getting to know the other students better and learning facts about them that I didn’t know before. We also drank beer and shot guns..hehe. Root beer and bb guns. I wasn’t even bothered that I didn’t get to use the internet; hence, that’s why this blog is doubled. J

John Stonestreet arrived yesterday afternoon to teach for a few days. So far we have had seven hours of lectures and discussion about culture. We’re learning about what culture is exactly and how we are too live within culture. I’m a bit overwhelmed at this point due to lots of information during class, many articles to be read, and realizing truth that I never knew before. Therefore, I won’t continue writing about culture until I can think more about it in depth. hehe..until then.

October 27^th, Thursday

Culture, culture, culture. That was our main discussion for the past three days. I really enjoyed learning about it, although, it was pretty depressing to see where the state of our country and world is. Here are some of my thoughts regarding the lectures.

A main point Stonestreet began with was Christians do a terrible job understanding culture, and culture does a terrible job understanding Christians. Christians react to culture by panic. For example, when something like Harry Potter becomes popular, Christians(conservative ones at least) will panic and shield their children from it without even knowing about the book or understanding the author.

Usually when I or most people think about culture, we think about specifics instead of generalities, such as cards, music, or dancing. The specifics are the fruit, not the root problem. Instead of reacting to the specifics, we need to find the root problem.

Culture is not the world, but what we do with our world. It’s not the structures of society, the institutions, but those who run the institutions. Culture comes from the word cultura, which means to plow or till, or to develop. At the core culture isn’t a bad thing, it’s how we develop it that makes it bad. It also comes from the word cult, to worship. At the root of a culture is religion. What we worship becomes culture. Stonestreet described culture as the flesh on the skeleton of religion.

What does culture do? It communicates visions of and for life and orients members of society around these visions.

In a nutshell, we, the human race as a whole, create culture, but then we get so used to the culture and it starts created us. We start conforming to the culture.

October 30^th, Sunday

I’m really relieved that this week has come to a close. The first three days were emotionally and spiritually draining. The next three were physically and mentally exhausting. However, through the struggles God taught me a few things about myself that led me to repentance.

Since I didn’t have time to blog throughout the week, here are a few highlights:

I read Romeo and Juliet for the first time, and I hated it. Ok, I hated the characters and their actions. I loved the discussions that I had with my classmates about it. We had to answer questions like, what is a good love, what is a good death, what good is love, and what good is death. Was the story based on fate or on flawed teens? Is love at first sight possible?(infatuation at first sight is).

Alumni from past years came for the weekend, so it was interesting to meet different students who have attended in the past six years.

Learning about the history of fundamentals and evangelicals was incredible. It’s so crazy how everything I participate in and see today within the wide Christian community is traced back so many years ago to various people and movements. Hopefully someday I’ll be able to blog about this topic more in depth. I’m really hoping to get a book about the history of Christianity in America. I’m so fascinated by it.

Once again, I’m amazed at how fast time goes by here, or in general. I only have five more weeks here. Of course, I’m excited to go home. But as I think about my future and what God has in store for me and how difficult it will be to get used to home life and living without my “bubble” here, it scares me. I think God is preparing me for it though. It’s going to be a major change. And I’m going to miss this place and the people here so much. Ok, I’m done thinking about that now.

Well those are my various thoughts for this week! Sorry so short, but you have to read through last week’s thoughts too. J If I could say one major thing I’ve learned this week, it would be this: relationships are two sided. You have to sacrifice for the other person, just as much as they have to sacrifice for you. And don’t give up even when it becomes difficult and it feels like you don’t connect with anyone, because maybe people connect with you and you just don’t know it. God is so faithful. J

Thanks for reading!

Week Number Five Has Arrived

October 12^th, Wednesday

Well, I learned the Greek alphabet on Sunday night. That was exciting. Greek letters are so much harder to write than the letters I have grown up writing. Perhaps that’s just because I’m not used to them yet. In addition to Koert’s Greek class, another mentor, Marcie, will be giving a public speaking work shop on Wednesday nights starting next week. That is something I definitely need to work on. I have, however, been speaking up in class a few times. And Dr. Bauman has called on me a number of times. I definitely looked like a fool though. Speaking of Dr. Bauman, we get him back tonight. I’ve really missed his lectures and questionings, even though we’ve only gone a week without him.

God has really been working on my heart the past couple of days. He’s revealing some bondage and I’m trying to relinquish it to him; however, it’s incredibly difficult. I’d rather not go into too much detail. You’d probably rather I didn’t either. J

I feel like relationships are beginning to deepen here, which is wonderful to me. For a while I thought that the relationships I had made were going to remain shallow, but I see them deepening. That’s an answer to prayer for me. I’m getting a lot closer to my small group as well. I’m beginning to open up more and more to them. And I love getting to know each of them on a more personal level. My mentor, Sarah, is so amazing too. She is definitely a gift from God. She is praying with me and encouraging me as I struggle to relinquish my struggles and burdens to God.

It’s warm again here. The weather here is a lot like Utah, probably because they’re so close together. hehe.. It went from snowing last week to in the 60’s this week. I like it a lot though. I can still take my tri-weekly walks without worrying about snow or rain.

Pretty sure I’m almost a pro sander by now. Actually I lied. Nathan, the property manager who directs work crews, says you become an expert at something after you’ve done it 1200 times. So I have about 1194 more sanding jobs to do. Two weeks ago, Dr. Bauman told us that at our age, most of us have watched about 1200 movies. So I’m definitely an expert movie watcher. Speaking of, I have to go watch Leap of Faith with critical eyes. I might just take notes!

October 13^th, Thursday

Well, in my honest opinion, Leap of Faith disgusted me. Probably because Steve Martin is the main actor, and I can’t stand him. However, it was important for me to watch, because afterwards Dr. Bauman asked us what we saw. As my classmates brought up point after point regarding camera angles, music, actions, dialogues, articles, themes, etc. I realized that I don’t watch with critical eyes. After my two week Summit Session, I started watching movies more critically, however, that faded after a while. So now I’ll definitely be trying harder to watch more critically. The film producers and directors have place everything in a place for a reason. The actors act and talk a certain way for a reason. Certain music is played for a reason. The camera angles are placed strategically for a reason. I need to remember this and watch better.

Right now I’m reading Mere Humanity by Donald T. Williams. He will be our professor all next week. Dr. Bauman claims that he is a brilliant poet(I do thoroughly enjoy his poems in the book) and writer. I am definitely excited for next weeks’ teachings. His book is pretty confusing to me, so I’m hoping I can read it a second time during next week. And hopefully he’ll explain it a bit. His book focuses on G. K. Chesterton, C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien and the Human condition. It makes me think of my Dad a lot, especially the parts about Narnia. It even quoted, “Further up and further in!” hehe…

We are continuing to read through Historians of the Christian Tradition and Church History in Plain Language. Dr. Bauman gives us a quiz each week on a chapter.

October 14^th, Friday

Social security…debt…welfare…macroeconomics…microeconomics…utility…value…money…working…wealth…marginal value…brains………We’ve been talking about economics. And I have a test on Ronald Nash’s book, Poverty and Wealth, tomorrow afternoon. I really want to study economics more in depth. For some reason it just intrigues me. And confuses me. So I don’t know how I will do on the test. L I guess I’ll let you know tomorrow!

October 15^th, Saturday

Woo hoo! I only got one question out of forty one questions wrong on my test today!! Technically I got two wrong, but there was an extra credit question that canceled out one wrong question. I’m so happy with my results! However, I need to change my study habits. I need to read slower, memorize important terms, take more detailed notes, etc. So that’s what I’ll be working on. I’m so stoked for next week. Donald Williams arrived this afternoon, and he’ll begin teaching English Literature on Monday morning. We’ll actually be acting out a play some time during the week(definitely out of my comfort zone) and going through a lot of his own poetry.

I’m also starting a new book: Romeo and Juliet. We students might be acting this out together in a study group; that’ll be pretty awesome. And we’ll be watching the movie, not the most recent one, the week after next. Hurrah!

I can’t believe that I’ve been here for over five weeks. It’s going by fast. I’m trying to take it day by day and enjoy every minutes of it; it still goes by quickly. L

One Month In....

...two months to go. hehe, that makes it sound like a bad thing. But it's not. It's a great thing! I am surprised at how fast it has gone! Here are my thoughts from the past week:

October 3^rd Monday

Now that I’m finally used to the schedule here at Summit Semester, it gets interrupted. But it’s a good interruption. Eric Smith has come to teach us about the Bible for a week. He taught our first class tonight from 7 to 9. Usually we don’t have class on Mondays because it’s our free day, but he has to get 22 hours of class time a week in order for the college credit(which I didn’t take part in) to apply. He is an intriguing teacher; his knowledge of the Bible and his teaching methods cause me to want to pursue learning about the Bible on a deeper level. In preparation for his arrival, we were supposed to read the first six chapters(139 pages) of The IVP Introduction to the Bible. I completed it today. It took many, many hours, but it was so worth it. It goes through an amazing overview of the Bible(the first six chapters covered the Old Testament) and describes the main themes, messages, relevance for today, main characters, etc in very plain language. I would definitely recommend this book(or what I’ve read) to anyone who desires to get an overview of the Bible in a simple, easy, yet intriguing way.

In addition to The InterVarsity Press Introduction to the Bible, I am also reading Habits of the Mind(Intellectual Life as a Christian Calling). I’m only on the second chapter, but I’m enjoying it. It talks about what an intellect is and how to be an intellect. And I want to be an intellect(though not a snob about it), so it should be very useful. At our family meetings, we are discussing the messages in this book.

In case you’re wondering(since I love schedules), this is my schedule of the week(a little bit changed this week).

Monday is our free day so other than meals or planned events(hiking\camping, trips to town) we have the entire day to ourselves!

8- breakfast(serve yourself if you sleep in)

12:15-lunch

5-Dinner

Tuesday

8-breakfast

9-10:30: Family Meeting

10:30-12: Study Time

12:15: Lunch

1:30-4:30: work crews

5: Dinner

6:30: reading aloud together as a group(right now we’re on Sir Gibby-not a children’s book)

8: small groups

Wednesday

8: breakfast

9-10:30: Solitude

10:30-12:00: Study time

12:15: Lunch

1:30-2:30: Exercise

5: Dinner

7-8:30: Class with Bauman

Thursday

8:breakfast

9-12: Class

12:15: Lunch

1:30-3:00: Class

3:30-4:30: Exercise

5: Dinner

6:30: Reading together

7-8:30: Study time

Friday

8: Breakfast

9-10:30: Class

10:30-12:00: Study time

12:15: Lunch

1:30-2:30: Exercise

5: Dinner

7-8:30: Class

Saturday

8:breakfast

9-12: Class

12:15: Lunch

1:30-3:00: Class

3:30-4:30: Exercise

5: Dinner

6:30: Reading together

7-8:30: Study time

9-10: Bauman’s reading from his book

Sunday

10:Church

12: Lunch at park

12-4: Internet!

5:dinner

7: Movie and discussion(So far we’ve watched Minority Report, The Village, and The Diary of a Mad Black Woman(TERRIBLE!)

October 4^th Tuesday

This morning, in order to figure out what to wear for the day, I looked out the window. To my delight and excitement, it was raining! This is weird for me, but I’ve really been wanting it to get cold. Usually I dread winter’s arrival. I’m pretty sure I want it to get cold because I didn’t bring very many summer clothes, so I’m sick of them. Or maybe it’s just because lodges in Colorado are super cozy during the cold season. Or perhaps it’s because Colorado is prettier than Utah in the fall season. I don’t know what it is, but I’m super excited. It rained all day long and fog drifted among the mountains so beautifully.

Tonight is a bit different than our usual Tuesday nights. The pastor and worship pastor, their families, and the rest of their small group came to eat dinner with us. We also worshiped together for about an hour. Then for small group, both girl small groups got together to make brownies and watch Sabrina. That was pretty fun, although I fell asleep a lot during the movie.

Also I’m super excited because for work crew today I got to bake and cook for three hours. Ha! Plus, I got to learn about the Bible being inspired or not for three hours! Exciting day altogether, I must say. On a sad note, listening to Anberlin makes me miss my siblings. L

October 6^th, Thursay

I LOVE RAIN! It’s been raining for the past three days, and I’m in love with it. I love hearing it pour down on the roof as I sit in class learning how to summarize the Bible into one sentence. I love feeling it on my face as I run to the lodge at 6:30 in the morning to pray with some of my fellow classmates. Ah. I thank God for rain and the beauty it brings.

I’m really enjoying my classes this week which are focusing on Biblical Foundations. So far we have covered the inspiration, transmission, and translation of the Bible, schools of interpretation, theories about inspiration, theories about inerrancy, the canon, the apocrypha, the Bible’s authority, and how and why to study the Bible. Eric Smith is a great teacher, I must say so myself. And IVP is a very helpful book, however, I wish it were more in depth. I guess that’s why it’s an Introduction.

I didn’t expect snow this soon, but it has arrived. Right before lunch we saw the first white signs, and everyone ran excitedly onto the porch yelling, “SNOW!” “It’s snowing!!!” It was a pretty sight and hilarious to watch everyone freak out about it, especially Devon from Florida who has never seen snow. During sports time, the volleyball addicts actually played while it was snowing. I think they are crazy. They’ve been out there for over an hour now. Crazy heads. I’m not much of a snow person, so I’m kind of a loner. But that’s ok. I like watching everyone else get excited. Plus I think the snow is much prettier and nicer out here since I don’t have to drive in it or get stuck in it or shovel it(at least not yet).

October 8^th, Saturday

Evangelical Christians need to change the way they read the Bible. I’m an evangelical Christian. I need to change the way I read my Bible(hehe..those are the kind of argument type things I’m learning to use). Most of what I’m about to write comes from Eric Smith or is a paraphrase of what he said. I agree completely with what he says. “Evangelicals don’t know, broadly speaking, what the Bible teaches. It’s possible to memorize, and not know what it means. It’s possible to be around the church, but not be part of the church, not understand what’s being taught.” “We read the Bible in bits and pieces. We take “pretty” verses and apply them to ourselves(Philippians 4:13, Jeremiah 29:11)(We take them and apply them to our lives even though a lot of the times they aren’t directed towards us at all) And we put them with pretty pictures(this isn’t bad all the time, we just need to watch ourselves). We latch onto verses without understand them or their context. When we know verses here and there, we don’t really have a Christian worldview. We need to know the whole Bible.”

My thoughts: Christians need to change. We need to start reading the Word in it’s context; we need to understand who the author is and who the audience is; we need to stop applying everything to our lives and just read the Word for what it is; we need to know the Word better, so much better…It’s honestly pretty discouraging to see how badly the church has become. We take God’s inspired Word of truth way too lightly. We study it in our “quiet times” because that’s what we ought to do and because we’ve been told to do it for so long. We need to question why exactly we’re studying the Bible; we need to question our motives.

Looking back on this week, I honestly must say, it was exhausting. I took the most naps I have since I got here, and I had to drink lots of caffeine to stay awake during class(it wasn’t boring. I was just super tired). It was spiritually exhausting too. I feel like I’m a mess right now. So prayers would be greatly appreciated right now. J

October 9^th, Sunday

Tonight I get to learn some Greek! One of the mentor’s, Koert, is going to seminary next year, so to refresh his Greek, he decided to teach us what he knows. I’m very very excited. For a long while I have been wanting to go to seminary just to take Greek and Hebrew, so being able to learn a bit of Greek for free is super duper awesome. Hurrah!

Third Week At Summit!!

September 27^th Tuesday

Yesterday I completed the dreaded six mile hike to V Rock. Thankfully, it wasn’t as bad as I had expected. I imagined it to be super steep and slippery with my no-traction-shoes(I didn’t break in my hiking shoes, so I couldn’t wear them). But it was actually a very enjoyable hike. I hiked up the mountain with my friend, Maggie. She hikes and breathes at the same rate that I do, so when we took breaks neither of us were annoyed at the other. I don’t enjoy hiking with hikers who never stop to breathe. I hike with lots of breaks so that I can actually breathe, enjoy the scenery, and take pictures. I got a great work out too, so all in all, hike=success. Our next hike is in two weeks, I believe, at the sand dunes. That should be interesting.

September 28^th Wednesday

“Is there any forgiveness for the things I’ve done? Is there pardon for sinners, I know that I’m one, before you. Would you take this heart of foulness and make it clean again? Would you pour on me your mercy as I confess my sin before you? Point my feet in the way they should go. Place your holy spirit in me. Lead me in the ways everlasting. I long to have a heart that’s pure. I need to have a heart that’s pure. Before you. Oh Lord, forgive me. I need your mercy. Oh Lord, forgive me.”

This is my “theme song” right now. I’m feeling overwhelmed with sin and struggles. For some reason, I didn’t think God would be working in me like he is now. I thought my time here would be all about relationships and learning, not so much about discovering my weaknesses and putting my hope and trust in Christ. But I had it wrong. That’s not a bad thing though. It’s just coming to grip with reality instead of continuing my beliefs about how I thought Semester was supposed to be-some kind of paradise, I guess. I don’t know why I ever thought that.

How did Christianity emerge from Jewish roots? That is a question from my “Church History in Plain Language” book that I will be quizzed on tomorrow morning. The Jews had been expecting a Messiah for thousands of years, but when Jesus came, they didn’t believe he was the one. The disciples, however, did. The Jews rejected Jesus; the disciples accepted him. Stephen, the book says, believed that the temple and the law were temporary while the Pharisees believed they were forever. Everything the Old Testament describes in relation to the law pointed towards Christ. I think that the main difference between Stephen and the Pharisees’ belief (in my own language) was that Stephen believed the law pointed towards Christ and a new law while the Pharisees believed that the law pointed towards their own righteousness. Hopefully this makes sense. It’s a new concept that I’m trying to wrap my mind around.

Tonight for our first lecture of the week, we discussed movies. Bauman focused a lot on the importance of understanding how film producers and directors make movies; they want you to feel or think a certain way. The angles in which the cameras are placed, the music, the themes, the film clichés, etc are all important to watch for when watching a movie. Everything is strategically placed somewhere for a reason and a purpose. So from now on, I’ll definitely be trying harder to watch movies critically and watch for those exact thing.

What really hit me(when he called on me which caused me to look like a complete fool L) was I don’t know why I choose to watch the movies I do. Violence doesn’t affect me, but does that mean I’m desensitized to it? Sexuality and language really affect me in a bad way; I find myself thinking impure thoughts and cursing(in my head) a lot if a movie focuses on those topics. But what is my rating system? When is a movie “bad” or good”? Am I watching movies that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, and praiseworthy? And if not, should I be watching those movies? Honestly, this topic of movies is so hard for me, probably just for selfish reasons. I want to watch movies without questioning them too much; I want to be entertained. I don’t want to quit watching movies. But I’m understanding that I need to have a critical view when I’m watching movies. I shouldn’t just be entertained, but figure out what the producers are trying to get me to think and feel and do. And honestly, it’s so hard to be obedient to God when it comes to sacrificing my wants(even for something so small as movies) for the purity He desires in my life. Entertainment is one thing that the world is so good at throwing at me without my knowing that it’s being thrown at me, without knowing that it’s consuming me. Ugh. My brain hurts from thinking so much.

September 30^th Friday

Philosophy is killer. We’ve discussed it the past two days in Church History class. It confuses me profusely, but it also makes me want to learn more about it. I’m excited for philosopher, J.P. Moreland, to come teach us later on this semester. And I’m excited to read “Philosophy in Plain Language”. Maybe then I’ll understand it better. Hopefully.

October 1^st Saturday

I discovered something today. I want to solve every problem this world has to offer me. And I want to solve it right now. By the end of our discussions in class, I want to figure out how to end abortion, if Polycarp’s martyrdom account is really true, how to fight terrorism and war justly, if philosophy and theology can be used simultaneously, how to choose a right spouse, etc. But these topics and issues cannot be solved in an hour and a half of thinking and discussing and debating. They can’t be solved in a day or a week or maybe even in a year. I’m finally understanding that Bauman doesn’t want us to solve the issues in class. He is just teaching us to question and think carefully about everything. When we’re presented with a problem(especially when we leave here), we need to look at it and dig around for answers. Before accepting something at face value, before saying I believe something, I need to think about why I accept or believe it. I need to question everything.

He keeps emphasizing the problem with Christians. Christians aren’t loving God with all their minds. They emphasize loving God with all their heart, soul, and strength. But not their minds. “Christians just skate on the surface of ideas.” We never dig deep to think about things we believe and why. We need to change this. That’s why I’m here, although, I never realized the problem was this complex. When we reason for things we need to base it soley on Christ, not on the church. The church is flawed and led by flawed human beings. “It’s Christ-ianity, not church-ianity.” Our churches may hold traditions or beliefs that can definitely be wrong or faulty. Don’t base beliefs on the church. Base your beliefs on Christ. Ask yourself “If Christ isn’t thinking it or doing it, should I?” Christ needs to be in charge, not the church?

I think this lesson is very important, and I plan on trying my hardest to follow these guidelines and trying to teach others about it.

October 2^nd Sunday

Saturday nights are a highlight for me. Dr. Bauman reads from his “memoirs” book for an hour. His life stories and experiences are hilarious and very interesting. When he reads, it’s nice to see him as a “real” person instead of an interrogator or teacher. And it’s crazy to think about him as a teenager or a marine. haha..I guess you’d have to know him now to understand what I’m talking about.

Yesterday I went on a walk all by myself for some alone time. I’ve realized that I’m pretty much not human without alone time. Anyway, the walk was incredible. All the leaves are changing colors, it smells like fall, and it’s not freezing cold yet. I took lots and lots of pictures and just enjoyed God’s beautiful creation and his company.

PS I thought I'd add this. I think I am finally adjusted to life here at Summit Semester: the intense schedule, tons of reading and studying, small groups, meals, lectures, exercising, solitude, etc. So thank you very much for your prayers. I appreciate them a lot! Relationships here seem to be going to a deeper(and more difficult for some) level as we get to know each other better. I'm very thankful for that.

Thanks for reading! Hopefully it's not too boring or confusing. :)