Different..

..describes me. Especially my thoughts. When I worked for the catering last week, all I could think about were the people's empty lives around me. How lost they were and how boring or hard their lives seemed. Other times, I think of teenagers. Although I'm one, I'm so different then all of them. I keep to myself. My thoughts are centered on Christ and how daily I can grow more in him. Sometimes it feels like I'm alone in this thought process. Like there's no other teenager out there who wants to be sold out to Christ. I know that's not true, but I know no one. It breaks my heart. Which is why I think of them. And pray for them. And reach out to them. But it feels so hopeless sometimes. I feel so small and insignificant in this world. But I know I'm not. With Christ I can do all things. I just have to lean on him. I think I think too much. I'm so quiet and usually don't speak about serious matters because it either causes me to cry or I can't get my feelings or opinons out the way I want to... That's why I think so much. It drives me nuts sometimes cuz I can't get to sleep or I get nauseous cuz it makes me so depressed....I'm unusual. But this is how God created me. Hopefully my intense thoughts and silence will bring glory to the Glorious one! Somehow.....